I have my eye operation on 6th dec. I have been wearing glasses since 2002. I have b'ful eyes and I always hate my specs. It was my dream that one day i will see the world without any help of glasses or contact lenses. And this is going to happen but i am not feeling any excitement. why????

 In last few days I've got a philosophy that "When you start to work on your dreams, you will start to live your life." Now i am doing the same. This is my first attempt to live in my dreams but i am not happy. why is it happening to me? is it normal or i've become numb? even i am not feeling any kind of nervousness or anxiety. Or possibly i've learnt to wait the final result, may be i've learnt that prior excitement or celebration could ruin the final result, may be i am afraid to celebrate the success which i do not have right now.
I do not know what to call this emotional situation??? a sign of maturity or an emotional numbness.
So i am waiting for the day of my operation, not for my good eye's vision but for my emotional reaction. I want to know that can i feel the life, the way i want if i start to fulfill my dreams.